I suddenly feel the urge to put my thoughts to paper. Well, in this case its a key board and a text file, but in the end it doesnt really matter This probably isnt the correct forum to be placing my ideas, but I’m out of options; no one is online to rant and sob to, so here I am:
Am I cursed to be alone for the rest of my life?! Is there just something fundamentally wrong with my personality that causes guys to run in the opposite direction? Am I just updateable? And when I finally get a guy interested in me, this just fuck up! How is it that two guys I’m interested in who have never met each other, get together within one day and leave me in the dust? I didnt even get the chance to do anything about either guy before they became unavailable!
Basically, the universe sucks. Thats all there is too it… Why even go on, what is the point? Why continue experiencing life if you have no one special to share it with…? Its tI’mes like this when I actually wish I was straight. Its not that it would be better being a heterosexual, its just that it would be easier. Easier to meet people. Easier to find that special someone. Easier to………just easier!
I am sorry that you feel that way. I know how frustrating it can be, but if you quit looking someone will fall into your lap. I just know it will happen!
hey buddy….im not gonna lie..guys are scum. Women prety much are the gods of the universe. im just playing jon. anyway. finding that special someone is hard and frustratiing. Make sure though that you can be happy on your own…and when its right..the right guy will come along….besides..do you know how many gay clubs are in saint louis???? hard to meet someone?? You need to get dressed up and take a ride to the Coffee Cartel…i doubt it would take you long to get hit on.
Well sorry to say but I do actually keep up on what you are writing these days. I thought I just HAVE to say something about this one. It occurs to me that this has been an on going thing the entire time I have known you. Let me give you some advice. You need to be happy with who you are first. I don’t even know if you like your self. So why would someone want to like you back. Be confident in yourself and go out more to meet people. I don’t know anything about what happend recently but was it another on-line thing? Maybe that isn’t for you. I think it is a good idea for you to go out to the Coffee Cartel and see what happens. In fact I know you have been hit on before but you have too high of standards or you find something wrong with everyone. By the way, if you can’t see a point to live then there is something wrong with you. And don’t just say that to try and get pitty. What guy is going to look at you and say “oh he hates his life, I wanna date him.” Again learn to be happy with yourself first. Oh, and stop being so negative about everything. Maybe you need to blow up on someone. Like just start screaming and let out some of your frustrations. Keeping it bottled up inside is only hurting you. Well that is all I have to say about that. Good luck.